Those Who Journey Into My Subconscious

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Lovers and Enemies

I cannot remember the whole dream. I had this dream earlier today. What I do remember is that me and a man that I was partners with (and in love with) were having a face-off. He was under someone's control, though. He wasn't himself. He held a child as a hostage, and shot at me. One bullet hit my shoulder. The guy next to me (one of my teammates) got hit once and caught a bullet with his teeth.
I didn't want to kill my partner/the man I loved. I tried to talk him into coming back to the good side. Whoever he was working for ordered him to kill the child. He was going to, but couldn't. The ceiling started coming down and he protected the child with his body. Large brick blocks hit him in his stomach, chest, and shoulders. He was bloodied and dead (or so I thought). I stumbled over to him and picked up the child. I fell next to him and looked at him. I cried and screamed out in anguish. His eyes opened and he smiled at me. He touched my face, just before he passed out.
Months passed and we hadn't seen each other. Finally, one day, I got to see him. We (the entire team) were in a beautiful villa on the beach. "He" walked in, and I tried to hug and kiss him, but he wouldn't let me... Even though I could tell he was happy to see me.
After everyone but us two had left the villa, he quickly closed and locked all of the doors. He quickly crossed the room to me and passionately kissed and hugged me. He felt so good. He began caressing me and grabbing me in all the right ways. Yet, I slightly resisted. I didn't want him to see my scars. Just as I was about to give in to his embrace, I got woken up.

Mind Over Matter

I don't remember much. I had this dream a few days ago. I was crossing a huge bridge that had large bodies of water on both sides. My master teacher threw me over the bridge. I was scared, thinking I was going to die, but when I reached the water, I landed on my feet and began running on the water. I jumped, ran, and glided over the water. My teacher was swimming on the water, and warned me not to go into certain areas of the water, or I'd fall in. I remember trying to make my way to him, but I was woken up.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Kung Fu Master and Crime Lords

In my dream, I got into a fight with my boyfriend, broke up with him and went to sleep. I began dreaming (yes, within the dream) of a Kung Fu master. He traveled all over the world, and everywhere he went, people tried to challenge him. He was very humble and non-confrontational, but when someone pushed, he quickly put an end to it. One person had a fighting style called dragonwind. He could command wind. The Master's style was Raven, and he could also command wind, but he had many other styles, as well. He and Dragon battled, and he made a fool of Dragon. He conjured a huge wind-Raven in the air.

2nd Dream: I was the wife/girlfriend/significant other of a crimelord/leader of the black mafia. People were after him and were trying use me and our child against him. The detectives that were after him did something horrible to some of his members, and were planning on doing it to me and our son, but we found out. We infiltrated their HQ, and got files and other information. One of the head investigators/people after my husband was in love with me. We had known each other since we were very young. We even went to academy together. He tried to talk to me, but my husband held a gun to his head, and I held a gun to the person with a gun pointed at my husband.

Our members were with us searching their HQ. Some of the information we stole gave us the locations of the families of the investigators/detectives that were after him/the people that had done something awful to our members. He (my husband) and I broke into each house. He tortured each family, and left a sign on the house that we had done it. I did one family. It was the family of the investigator who was going to hurt my son and me. I almost got caught, and had to run through the house, and escape down a trellis into an abandoned building. I kept going until I covered our trail.

My husband sent me and my son to one of our hideaway homes, but we were found. I heard them coming, and tried to sabotage one of them. I got my son and was getting ready to go out the back door, but the cop that was in love with me came up behind me and grabbed me. He told me to be quiet. He was there to help. I trusted him, and he saved me and my son. Now he was wanted, too.

When we were in a safe location, he kissed me. He tried to get me to leave my husband, but I wouldn't. He eventually got caught and tortured for information, but wouldn't talk. I ended up saving him and fixing his wounds.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Very interesting dream last night... I had a dream that my entire family and I moved into a new house together. The house was very old and beautiful, and it had a large in-ground pool. The pool walls were clear and if you were in the basement of the house, you could see into the pool. The pool was very deep (more than 10 feet). The bottom of the pool had ancient looking statues. Inside of the house, I found an Akan drum. I've never seen an Akan drum, but in the dream I called it that. It was beautiful and had carvings all over it. The drumstick, mallet or whatever was a long, smooth bone and hitting different parts of the drum with it created beautiful sounds. I don't play the drums, but in the dream I played that drum perfectly. I didn't know why or how. When looking out of the top window (the house was 2 or 3 stories) there was a beautiful view of a very old, abandoned, and decaying tower. It looked Moroccan or Arabic in design. I found a picture that looks almost exactly like what I dreamed of. The building/temple was much larger than this. It was larger than a football stadium and tall like a skyscraper.
 

Thursday, May 19, 2011

The Moon, Lovers, and a River

I remember being at some seminar and getting a lot of free gifts for being there, all of which I put into a large box. Family members of mine were there, but they decided to leave to my grandmother's house and come back a little later. I tried to persuade them not to go, but they didn't listen. When we walked outside it was pitch black. The moon was supposed to be out, and it distressed me that the moon was not visible. I saw faint moon rays from behind the blackness of the sky. I pointed this out to everyone before I got to the car.

When I got into the car, my mom's oldest foster daughter was being mean to my son, so I fussed at her, but I made my grandfather stop the car. He started to drive before any of us were ready, and I told him to stop again, but this time it was as if he could not. In reality, my grandfather suffers from dementia, and in the dream, the dementia suddenly took over his mind. He drove recklessly, nearly hitting other cars, trees, etc. I had to grab the steering wheel and steer us somewhere safe. The whole time I was crying and yelling at everyone in the car who had decided to let him drive. We finally made it to a quiet road with no traffic and trees lining it. We all got out of the car.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

.::Snakes, Military, and Africa Tattoos::.

I only remember small bits and pieces of my dream last night. I remember crushing the head and body of this bright, bright green snake with a broom. I also remember I was supposed to be going into the military, but couldn't because I had some unresolved business first. I remember drinking water, but as I drunk the cold, cold water it became hot--but not so hot I couldn't tolerate it. I remember getting part of Africa tattooed on my chest, but the tattoo wasn't finished (it has to be done is sessions). The tattoo was huge. It took up all the upper part of my chest & when finished would reach down to my hip bones... This isn't the order of the dream. I don't remember the order... Weird dream. I need to figure the meaning. in one part I had to take up for my (soon to be) adopted sister... And in 1 part I fell off of a highway bridge with an ex but we landed on a mattress that drove like a car... :-/ That's just out there... Oh, and the sheets were a gold color.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Water Moccasin

I do not remember much of the dream. A snake was loose in the house and my son wanted me to catch it. I was scared, but I looked for the snake anyways. I had to be brave for my son. I saw the snake slither under the bed. Somehow I got bit on the ankle by the snake. I was on the phone with "F," and he acted as if he didn't care. I practically begged him to take me to the hospital, but he didn't. I got bit on the wrist now and my ankle was swelling up. I caught the snake with my bare hands. I smashed its head in my hand and took it off the body.

That's all I remember.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

.::Disowned::.

I had a dream about my family disowning me. In the dream I was staying with my mother and we were having a lot of issues and disagreements because I do not believe what she believes. My son and I were in my room, and my son was playing with some of my books. They were books on magick, metaphysical information, etc. My mother came in and was upset that I allowed my son around such books. She picked up one of my books (an Aleister Crowley book) and began marking out entire pages in the book. I snatched my books from her reach and we started arguing. I told her she would have to pay for the book she ruined and she laughed. During our argument she said I was leading my son to hell. The fight became physical, and my father had to step in.

Monday, March 7, 2011

.::Controlling Dreams::.

About a week or two ago, I had another dream that I controlled. I barely remember it, but I had to struggle to stay sleeping. These beings were closing in around me and I thought, "This is my dream. I can control this." I tried knocking all of them back, but it didn't work. Finally, as I held out my hands, I absorbed them. I absorbed the beings into my hands. That's all I remember.